minw's everyday musings.

2011-12-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

i only turned to the dark side and desperate because of im afraid of losing you.

your love kept me alive.

The worst thing happened and i dint die.

but i had to find a new way to move on with my life.

i only want you to be happy.

im just sorry that it couldn't be with me

2011-09-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

Do you have any idea how much i wish you to be here with me ...?
to hold my hands
wipe my tears
to just hold me close to you
and i know everything will be ok.

i know it sucks to be you right now
and i hate myself for not being stronger
i could have hold back my tear
i could have kept the sorrows and bury all my questions

i know its not easy being you
and i wish i am stronger than i think i am
to give you lesser worries
to give you nothing but happiness.

2011-09-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight

2011-08-07T21:30:00.002+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

2011-07-11T01:23:00.001+08:00

never look back.

2011-06-11T04:06:00.000+08:00

Love can never be maintained as just "special" friend, its either here or there. technically it sounds like "more than friends". what does it truly means?

To me, it consists of a mix of devotions and desires that are meant to be inlogically correct.
there's no clear line and limits. there's no rules and regulations to abide. There's no yes or no to say. The amount of insecurities and doubts that keeps you at the peak on a rollercoaster and all the way down to rock bottom. its never balanced. The amount of hurt and pain you went through, the mental torture you created just makes yourself more miserable. while the one you sacrificed for just take his stand and leave you in the lurch, clearly cos there's nothing he can do to save you.

At the end of the day, you realise that there's nothing to lose cos it was never yours in de first place.

2011-04-24T18:05:00.001+08:00

For the past 2 hrs, i was watching Sleepless in Seattle.
For the last 15 mins, i was thinking of a lot to write here.
For the last 5 seconds, i decided to confide in my blog.

maybe no one's reading it, maybe there is.

During my adulthood, I have fell in love so many times,
be it thinking that it's love or being seriously in love.
After this ONE,
i really know what is love all about.

You are willing to make changes,
to compromise, to give it all, to make things work.
You do the craziest thing ever.
your friends see the changes in you.
your beliefs, your principles, your worries
are all secondary.
You went beyond your means, never really expecting anything in return.
All that you ever asked from, is having his heart and him.
knowing that the love you shared, was real.

Then you realised that things doesnt work out,
not because he doesnt love you or you lose your feelings.
it's because you can never have him.

you started to doubt his feelings,
for him not being able to sacrifice all odds to be with you.
you started to hate him,
for making you feel so hurt at the slightest things.
you started to try ways to forget about him,
only to know that at the end of the day, you feel empty inside.
you started to kick up a fuss,
so he will hate you for messing up his life,
so he will tell you he'll leave you for good.
perhaps only then, you'll climb back up from that fall.
ready to move on.

so tell me, is this true love ?

where should i go from here ?

-heartwreaked-

2011-04-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

Totally cant wait for my 6D5N HK trip !!
Have been planning the itinery with the rest, it's just so packed!
wish i can have more than a week there instead, but not much leave left! =X

i'd love to explore every corner of hongkong island & kowloon!
i'd love to visit the big buddha at Lantau Island again!
More of Mongkok, Citygate, TST, Central & Causeway Bay!

found some shops that digs analogue stuffs
http://9days.hk/

http://microsites.lomography.com/stores/gallery-stores/hongkong

Good websites for shopping & dining in HK =)
http://www.hongkonghustle.com/

http://www.shift.jp.org/guide/hong-kong/

2011-02-28T00:06:00.001+08:00

Y Petal to the Metal Natasha

i like the dove metal plates, the pocket-full design which totally caters to me!

and the interior which i hv a soft spot for such lil details! =)

shall head town this wk to chk this out!

not forgetting my iphone casing!

it seems like it's so hard to find a simple yet nice & lasting one, my "ideal" one!

2011-02-19T19:55:00.001+08:00

Looks i Y from LOOKBOOK.nu

2011-02-13T23:34:00.001+08:00

will you take a stroll with me ?

spent a great saturday with josh.
thanks for the companion and doing the lil things we like.
enjoying the long walk under the scorching sun.
chased by bees and surrounded by butterflies.
enjoying every minute of the man-made nature.

here we are at hortpark

despite the drizzle and passing clouds, overall it was a great weather

a nice place out of the city bustle.

the vibrance of the flowers

my heart is left there, all by itself.

my personal fav of josh =)

Dear josh,
i really appreciated your friendship,
esp during the hard times now and the past.
whenever i feel down and needed someone,
you will try your best to be there for me.

my girlfriends, you know who you are.
when my heart is wreaked and my life is in a total mess,
you lent me your listening ears and share your stories, gave me options and advices.
you watched me cry and rant til like there's no tomorrow
no matter how stubborn and die hard i am, you never give up on me.
i have no idea what will become of me if i do not have you girls around.
thanks xoxo.

im gonna walk away to a happier tomorrow.

2011-02-06T17:04:00.000+08:00

the goodbye scene that tore my heart apart =,,,(
bridges of madison county...

meryl streep watches clint eastwood stand in the rain as thier eyes say goodbye....then she returns to reality and turns to a friend..the only divorced woman in the town...but never shares her secret...until her children read her will..that is the way the story is told..as they read it.

2011-02-04T14:03:00.000+08:00

A thousand times I?ve seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me want to run till I find you

I shut the world away from here
Drift to you, you?re all I hear
Everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had any more to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you

Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for a space
A city bus that sounds just like a fridge

I walk the streets through seven bars
I had to find just out where you are
The faces seem to blur, they?re all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had any more to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you

Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don?t you trick me out
We shall overcome
'Cause our love stays ablaze

But we should have had the sun
Could've been inside
Instead we?re over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time, too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I
Had any more to give
You?re pushing me so far
Here I am without you

Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I, I wish this could last forever
I, oh I, as if we could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

Season of LOVE

2011-01-16T15:27:00.002+08:00

here comes my heart obsession, once again~
YYY

Topshop
laid back and heart-ish!

love the leggings!
gonna get it for cny!

how i wish i still wear socks!!!! i'd so get these!!!!
ohh i can always wear during night time, big tee and hearty socks! cute isnt it?

Victoria Secret
Lace-inset Legging

2011-01-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

Everything but anything by sara.

you naturally pull away
from anything that's good
from anything that seems so right

you find it so hard to say
the night's just going fine
you wanna do it again sometime

i'm not a rental for you boy
i'm just a lonely heart too
being vindictive's not a cure
come step in my shoes

your melody's off my key
i can't get your own tone
it's too hard to park in that zone

crawl under my warm folds
my phone's in here with me
you don't seem to really agree

i'm not a rental for you boy
i'm just a lonely heart too
being vindictive's not a cure
come step in my shoes

you're everything everything
i could've wanted and more
everything everything
that i now need to endure
put these words in a frame
constantly reminded that you
are anything but beautiful

trying to run away from me
hopeless evasions of my needs
trying to see through unborn eyes
you're not the one

2010-12-25T21:55:00.079+08:00

MERRY XMAS 2010!!
my favourite festive of all times.
the merriest day of the year.

it was a fun-filled xmas eve with my loved ones at work and countdown =)

festive mood has strucked me since like start of novemeber!!
hohoho!! i started getting gifts and decorating my desk with blings and ornaments!
i got my santa hat and cute furry xmas pouches!

created using paper cups (that still smells of earl grey)
We were asked to use biodegradable elements to create an ornament to hang on the pine tree in office.
it was quite an overwelming response from the department.
YEAH we won the Tree Deco Competition.!! =D

Some of my pressies from my colleagues =)
very sweet of em.
i love surprising them first thing in the morning as im usually the early bird.

MOST SURPRISED gift of the year!
handmade card from josh!
it made me tear the instant i saw it!
thanks darling!! =,)
accompanied with cute post-its, cos i always said she waste my pink post its.
HOHOHO!

DVDS! one of which was my team gift exchange. i got the first on my wishlist!
now ive a total of 6 dvds to watch. 2 down!! 4 more to go!! ;)

garfield : "christmas ~* it's not the giving, it's not the getting, it's de loving~*"

Gifts from meiyi, eric, yaya =)

really thoughtful of FP to get this warm water bag to ease my monthly cramps!
hohoho! i must have been too obvious alr lah! =p

3 schedule books!! very thoughtful of em to noe i want ONE.
2 cute n colourful ones from kikki.k.
1 moleskine - serious
i love em all!!
but now im puzzled which one i shld use?!

Toy camera - clover san from vivi!
stationary set from mr huang!! so nice of him to get the pen and bookmark alongside with the book.

Apple recipe from the apple schedule book.
omggggg i dig schedule books, esp cute ones.

adhesive labels for moleskine legendary notebook. i like =)

my big notebook collection! handmade one from yosh. it's really lovely and glittery.
i cant bear to use all my notebooks!!
gimme a rack to display all my wonderful books pls!

ps; i love my set of 6 ! esp the *bonus*
love the sketch, totally highlights my xmas!

thanks everyone for your love!
hope u felt mine too ;)
YYY

i'm glad i spent a cosy wkend with family this xmas =)
cheerios !! hope you folks enjoyed urs too !!

2010-12-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper-thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you?
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane, comes a rainbow

Maybe the reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time you know

You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

2010-12-08T23:35:00.005+08:00

i came across this journal that was written by me and an ex bf.

REFLECTIONS - i felt like ive never change. ive always let my emotions sway easily and worst part is that i cant control it and resist temptations. not that ive made this mistakes time after times.
ive hurt ppl who loved me so dearly.
ive disregarded their feelings and led astrayed.
ive disappointed them and they always feel that they were in the wrong.
i constantly picked on them without reflecting on myself and my nonsenses that they have endured all these while.
We all grow from all these experiences, the heartpain, the tears, learn the hard way.
Why have i only realised so late?
some things are never too late.
i hope i'll have the chance to really love someone so dearly for the rest of my life.

how many "NEW CHAPTER" do i have to go thru before i find ONE TRUE Y?
im sick and tired =(

@minw_ari I wanna fall head over heels with someone who'll take me away from here, spend all festives and laze beside me every wkend. I wanna hold on n tell him "Let's give it my last, best shot!":)

Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.

Love takes no pleasure in other's sins,
but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope
and to endure whatever comes.

nicholas sparks.

<3

RIGHT NOW,
many things have changed.

i fell in and out of love with the same person.
i am in fact, still stucked in the mess ive created.
heart is still tied in a knot.

i hope to set it free!

i've started a term @ kaplan for mass comm & media mgt.
so far, my score sheet has been straight Cs-credit.
ive been working hard, perhaps not smart enough.

i want a D pls!

ive been stucked in this job for the 4th xmas.
3 yrs and 1 month to be exact.
many reasons contributing to my determination to leave.

i want to quit!

Christmas 2010 is coming.
my favourite festive holiday of all time.
and this year, im gonna spend it with my gfs,
not boyfriend, isnt this is really sad?
well, ive always spent my xmas with my bf.

so this is an odd year.

i just want to be happy!

For the better or worst, YOU DECIDE =)

2010-11-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

It's summer snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch, but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that's crying for you

If there were something not to change forever
We could feel it deep, deep in our heart
Today is over with a million tears
Still everyone has a wish to live

Oh, I do believe ever lasting love
And destiny to meet you again
I feel a pain I can hardly stand
All I can do is loving you

It's summer snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch, but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that's crying for you
Just like my love that's crying for you

2010-11-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face

If a greater wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own?

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way, way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

2010-11-17T01:33:00.002+08:00

The Beatles
first-ever live U.S. concert at the Washington Coliseum

was doing my sch work and was told that The Beatles is on Itunes!
and there goes my 1 hour watching vids and concert!!
was laughing yelling (at this hour!1.09am) thruout!
esp when i see Paul rock n roll~ his cute antics!!!!
when he thanked the audience, he pulled his fringe (like a salute with your hat) and bow to em. WEeeeeeeeee CUTE =D
when paul ohhhhhhhh~ he always shakes his head. their hair sorta bounce!

the four of them, George, Paul, John singing their lungs out, shy Ringo drumming his hair away~
George : ya'noe ya noe~ clap your hands! stamp your feet! ya'noe ya noe~
ohhhh---~ohhhhh~~-------she loves youuuuuuuuuu~

observed that the round platform where the drum sits is rotatable
so they can perf n face all 4 sides of the stage

"i wana hold ur handdddddddddddd~~~~~~ "
seeee what paul didddd!!
the chicky dance
Twist and shout
Well, shake it up baby now
(shake it up baby)
Twist and shout
(twist and shout)
Come on, come on, come on,
come on baby, now
(come on baby)
Come on and work it on out
(work it on out)
Woooooooh ~ ~ ~

i love the last song, paul totally rocked the audiences~!!!
practially brought down the house of 7000 ppl!
No flashy attires, special props other than the drum platform and their guitars,,,
it was awesOMe!!! =D

SONG LIST for the concert =)
Roll Over Beethoven
From Me to You
I Saw Her Standing There
This Boy
All My Loving
I Wanna Be Your Man
Please Please Me
Till There Was You
She Loves You
I Want to Hold Your Hand
Twist and Shout
Long Tall Sally

more abt the concert

cheeky conversations.
funny replies.Q: "When did the group first get togther?"
GEORGE: "Well you see, Paul, John and George met at school about five years ago, and we met Ringo when we left school. And we've been the Beatles for three years."
(Paul begins singing, and the other Beatles join in)
BEATLES: (singing) "We've been together now forty yeeeears!"
Q: "Where did you get the name the Beatles?"
JOHN: "I thought of it."
RINGO: "That's John."

Q: "Why?"
JOHN: "Why not!"
(laughter)
Q: "Do the four of you ever fight among yourselves?"
JOHN: "Only in the morning, ha."

RINGO: "No, we're very good friends."
Q: "Did you always have your hair this way?"

JOHN: (laughing) "Only in the morning!"
(laughter)
Q: "Did Ringo get his name from 'The Ringo Kid'?"
RINGO: "No. From all this on me fingers. Can you see 'em?"
Q: "Do you know who 'The Ringo Kid' is?"
RINGO: "He was a cowboy, wasn't he?"
Q: "Thank you."
RINGO: "Thank you."
(laughter)

Q: "How long do you think Beatlemania will last?"
JOHN: "As long as you all keep comin'."
(laughter)

Q: "Do any of you have any formal musical training?"
JOHN: (comically) "You're joking!!"
PAUL: (giggles)
RINGO: "No, we just picked it up."
JOHN: (laughs)

Q: "What do you think of President Johnson?"
RINGO AND JOHN: "Never met him."
JOHN: (comically, to Ringo) "Oh, we're thinking alike!"
PAUL: "We haven't met him."
RINGO: "We don't know. We've never met the man... (pause) Does he buy our records?"
(laughter)
Q: "What do you think of America, Amercican girls, and American audiences?"
RINGO: "Marvelous."
(laughter)
Q: "Can you compare them with Europeans?"
RINGO: "They're all the same, you know."

Q: "Have you visited the United States with any sense of revenge?"
JOHN: "He's been reading that paper, hasn't he!"
RINGO: "No! No, we just... (pause) come for the money."
(laughter)
RINGO: "It's a lie. No. We're..."
PAUL: (comically) "Excuse me?"
(Beatles laugh)
Q: "Are English disc jockeys as important as American disc jockeys?"

JOHN: "They're all as important as each other, if they've got any listeners.Q: "What was the big break that led to your success?"
JOHN: "Making a record."
PAUL: "Making our first hit record. The BIG success was doing the Royal Variety show in front of the Queen Mother, and then right after that nearly at the same time, doing the London Palladium.

Q: "This phenomenal popularity you have acheived, do you feel you owe it all to press agents?"
JOHN: "We didn't get the press agents until we made it. We couldn't afford 'em before that."
(laughter)

Q: "What do you think about the criticism that you are a bad influence?"
PAUL: "I dunno, you know. I don't FEEL like a bad influence. (to John) Do you?"
JOHN: "Nah, I think you're a GOOD influence, Paul."
PAUL: "Thank you, John."

Q: "Is there any chance of the Beatles becoming knighted?"
(Beatles laugh)
PAUL: "No. (pause) No, YOU may be, though."

(laughter)
JOHN: "Can you imagine, Sir Ringo."
(laughter)
Q: "Who writes most of the songs?"
PAUL: "John and I write most of the records that we recorded. And Brian Sommerville (Beatles' Press Agent) does all the lyrics."
(laughter)
PAUL: "He's a BEAUTIFUL lyricist. Listen to him, now. Go on, Brian."
(no sound from Brian Sommerville)

PAUL: "He's fantastic. No, it just comes and goes, you know."
Q: "Who are the Beatles' favorite performers?"
JOHN: "The Miracles."
GEORGE: "Marvin Gaye."
JOHN AND PAUL: "Tommy Roe."

Q: "How long will you be in America?"
JOHN: "Till we go.
(laughter)
PAUL: "It's just a week. About a week."

Q: "What do you like or dislike about America?"
JOHN: "We like it all."
RINGO: "Yeah. We haven't any dislikes yet."
GEORGE: "Dislike the snow."
(laughter)
PAUL: "I don't. I love the snow."
GEORGE: "I do."

Q: "Have you ever really been afraid of the large crowds?"
BEATLES: "No."
PAUL: "We enjoy it, you know. There's enough police, anyway."

Q: "What has been your most exciting moment in the last year?"
PAUL: "There's been a lot of them. You know, meeting the Queen Mother at the Royal Command Performance, being number one in America, coming to America, traveling..."
RINGO: "...in America?"
(laughter)
PAUL: "We've enjoyed America. Been a lot of them, though."

Q: "Are the Beatles still number one in Europe?"
JOHN: "Well, Europe's got a lot of lists."
GEORGE: "A lot of countries."
PAUL: "A lot of hit parades."

Q: "In England."
PAUL: "Not in England."
JOHN: "No, the record's gone down to 7 or something."
PAUL: "But it's been out about 12 weeks... longer than 12 weeks in England."
JOHN: "It's been out about 3 months."
GEORGE: "'She Loves You' is still in the Top 20 and it's been out 25 weeks."

Source: Transcribed by www.beatlesinterviews.org from audio copies of the press conference

Press conference.FROM THE UNRELEASED BEATLES: MUSIC AND FILM: The complete film of the Beatles' first US concert on February 11, 1964 at Washington Coliseum, as well as footage of their dress rehearsal at for The Ed Sullivan Show on February 16, 1964, which was filmed but not broadcast.

2010-11-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

Sis' Solemnisation 05.10.2010

lovvvvve this lil boy so much i nida get ....

a kiss from him ! =)))

The newly wedded couple =)

photos credits : kevin & sherman

2010-11-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

Just when you think it's over
You're hit with a brand new start
And you find right there within you
That you never lost that spark.
Love is your colour...
It makes you shine,
I know (I know)
So show your colours
It comes from inside.
Everything else is black and white
But Love is your colour (be the colour)
Love is your colour (show your colour)
Love is your colour (yeah)
Some say it?s just an emotion
That comes and goes with time
But love is your colour
It makes you shine
Sometimes it's hard to cope
Long as you always know
To show your colour
It?s come from inside

Everything else is black and white
Love is your colour
Time is a force that we can?t hold back
It moves on like a thief in the night (love)

Love is a friend
That will hold your hand
Always right there by your side (side)
Love is a colour
It makes you shine (it makes you shine)
I know (I know) I know
So show your colour
It comes from inside
Everything else is black and white.
Oh no no no
Love is your colour (be the colour)
Love is your colour (show your colour)
Love is your colour (oh oh oh yeah)
Love is your color
It makes you shine
(It makes you shine)
I know (I know) I know
I know...I know I know I know...
Love is your colour
It comes from inside
Everything else is black and white.
Oooooh
Love is your colour (Oooooooh oooh)
Love is your colour (Oooooooh oooh)
Love is your colour (Oooooooh oooh)
But Love is your colour (be the colour)
Love is your colour (show your colour)
Love is your colour.

2010-11-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

i love.
i hate.
i smile.
i cry.
i laugh.
i whine.

i need your love.
i need your attention.
i need to be your one and only...

my heart is broken once twice or just too much
my heart aches at the sight of you and her
it stops beating it sinks to a bottomless pit

for a moment.
im bleeding love.

2010-10-31T21:01:00.002+08:00

Random post.

Happened to chance upon a pic of Paul with a Lubitel.

love this awesome performance by Paul at Children in need charity.
Paul McCartney performing 'Hey Jude' at Children In Need

From the Lake house

love this song. Y

for ~~you~~, ME

i'm very sure
this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before

now i see
this is the way it's supposed to be
i met you and now i see
~~this is the way it should be~~
but is this the way it should be?

this is the way it should be for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
~~it's not so good when you're on your own~~
it's not so good when im on my own

2010-10-31T15:36:00.001+08:00

Love and pain and sorrow
keep the band together
She was like my soulmate
Whispered in my ear
Love was playing music
It was all we wanted
Making plastic records of our history

How I knew it mattered
To a certain person
Heard the boy in London call out from the crowd
Said something that I could tell to me 10 years later
Wishing that he still called
Like he called that night

Pulling songs from thin air
Pulling songs from bridges
Smell the air in small town
Where the train line stops
Ever will I love you
Now your chapter's over
Ever will I love you
You were good to me

Now our pain and memory
is a cherished story
Moan about the present
then arrayed the past
Love is like a novel
Read the blessed pages

Did I do my best dear?
That is all you ask

~Read The Blessed Pages

2010-10-17T16:08:00.006+08:00

Before sunrise

The film starts with Jesse meeting Céline on a train from Budapest and striking up a conversation with her. Jesse is going to Vienna to catch a flight back to the United States, whereas Céline is returning to university in Paris after visiting her grandmother.

When they reach Vienna, Jesse convinces Céline to disembark with him, saying that 10 or 20 years down the road, she might not be happy with her marriage and might wonder how her life would have been different if she had picked another guy, and this is a chance to realize that he himself is not that different from the rest; in his words, he is "the same boring, unmotivated guy." Jesse has to catch a flight early in the morning and does not have enough money to rent a room for the night, so they decide to roam around in Vienna.

After visiting a few landmarks in Vienna, they share a kiss at the top of the Wiener Riesenrad Ferris wheel at sunset and start to feel a romantic connection. As they continue to roam around the city, they begin to talk more openly with each other, with conversations ranging from topics about love, life, religion, and their observations of the city.

Céline tells Jesse that her last boyfriend broke up with her six months ago, claiming that she "loved him too much". When questioned, Jesse reveals he had initially come to Europe to spend time with his girlfriend who was studying in Madrid, but they had broken up when she was avoiding him while he was there. He decided to take a cheap flight out of Europe, out of Vienna, but it didn't leave for two weeks so he bought a Eurail pass and traveled around Europe.

When they are walking alongside the Donaukanal (danube canal) they are approached by a man who, instead of begging, offers to write them a poem with a word of their choice in it. Jesse and Céline decide on the word "milkshake", and are soon presented with the poem Delusion Angel (written for the film by the poet David Jewell).

In a traditional Viennese café, Jesse and Céline stage fake phone conversations with each other, playing each others' friends they pretend to call. Céline reveals that she was ready to get off the train with Jesse before he convinced her. Jesse reveals that after he broke up with his girlfriend, he bought a flight that really wasn't much cheaper, and all he really wanted was an escape from his life.

They admit their attraction to each other and how the night has made them feel, though they understand that they probably won't see each other again when they leave. They simply decide to make the best of what time they have left, ending the night with the implication of a sexual encounter between them. At that point, Jesse explains that if given the choice, he'd marry her instead of never seeing her again. The film ends the next day at the train station (Wien Westbahnhof), where the two hastily agree to meet together at the same place in six months as the train is about to leave.

Before Sunset

Nine years have passed since the events of Before Sunrise, when Jesse (Hawke) and Celine (Delpy) had met in Vienna. Since then, Jesse has written a novel, This Time, inspired by his time with Celine, and the book has become an American bestseller. To help sales in Europe, Jesse does a book tour. The last stop of the tour is Paris, and Jesse is doing a reading at the bookstore Shakespeare and Company. As Jesse talks with his audience, flashbacks are shown of him and Celine in Vienna; the memories of their night together have clearly remained with him despite nine years having elapsed. Three journalists are present at the bookstore, interviewing Jesse: a romantic who is convinced the book's main characters meet again, a cynic who is convinced that they don't, and a third one who, despite wanting them to meet again, remains doubtful they actually do. As he speaks with his audience his eyes wander toward the window, and he can hardly believe it: Celine is smiling at him.

Once the presentation is over, the bookstore manager reminds him he has a plane to catch and must leave for the airport in a little more than an hour, and so just like in Before Sunrise, Celine and Jesse's reunion is constrained by time. As in the earlier movie, the characters are forced to make the best of the little time they have together, making it easier for their conversations to become ever more personal, beginning with the usual thirty-something's themes of work and politics and then, with ever increasing passion, approaching their love for each other, just as their time together is running out.

Early in their conversation, they broach the subject of why they did not meet as promised six months after their first encounter. It turns out that Jesse had returned to Vienna, as promised, but Celine did not, because her grandmother had suddenly died before the scheduled date of the meeting. Because Jesse and Celine had never exchanged addresses, there was no way for them to contact each other, which resulted in their missed connection.

As they talk, each reveals what has happened in their lives since first meeting. Both are now in their early thirties. Jesse, now a writer, is married and has a son. Celine has become an advocate for the environment, lived in America for a time, and has a boyfriend, a photojournalist. It becomes clear in the course of their talk that both are dissatisfied to varying degrees with their lives. Jesse reveals that he only stays with his wife out of love for his son. Celine says that she does not see her boyfriend very much because he is so often on assignment.

Their conversation as they traverse Paris takes place in various venues, including a café, a garden, a bateau mouche, and Jesse's hired car for his stay in Paris. Their old feelings for each other are slowly rekindled, even with tension and regret over the missed meeting earlier, as they realize that nothing else in their lives has matched their one prior night together in Vienna. Jesse eventually admits that he wrote the book in the distant hope of meeting Celine again one day. She replies that the book brought back painful memories for her. At one point, in the hired car, during a tense moment when Jesse is confessing his loveless, near sexless marriage, Celine reaches her hand out to touch Jesse but pulls back just as he turns to her.

In the concluding scene, Celine and Jesse arrive at her apartment. Jesse had learned that Celine plays the guitar and persuades her to play a waltz song for him. The waltz (written by Delpy) is revealed through the lyrics to be about their brief encounter.

Jesse then plays a Nina Simone CD on the stereo system. Celine dances by herself to the song "Just in Time" as Jesse watches her. As Celine imitates Simone, she mutters to Jesse, "Baby ... you are gonna miss that plane." As the camera slowly pans in, Jesse smiles while nervously fidgeting with his wedding ring and ambiguously responds, "I know," leaving the viewer to guess whether he stays or leaves, just like the three journalists who interviewed Jesse at the beginning of the film.

marriage :
Alright, alright, think of it like this: jump ahead ten, twenty years, okay? And you're married. Only your marriage doesn't have that same energy that it used to have, you know? You start to blame your husband. You start to think of all those guys you met in your life and what might have happened if you'd picked up with one of them, right? Well I'm one of those guys, that's me! So think of this as time travel. From then to now to find out what you're missing out on. See, what this really could be is a gigantic favor to both you and your future husband to find out that you're not missing out on anything; I'm just as big a loser as he is, totally unmotivated, totally boring, and you made the right choice and you're really happy.~

breaking up :
You know what's the worst thing about somebody breaking up with you? Is when you remember how little you thought about the people you broke up with and you realize that is how little they're thinking of you. You know, you'd like to think you're both in all this pain but they're just like 'Hey, I'm glad you're gone'.~

Y
Daydream, delusion, limousine, eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet-cakes and milkshakes
I'm a delusion angel
I'm a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don't want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we're going
Lodged in life / Like branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I'll carry you
You'll carry me
That's how it could be
Don't you know me?
Don't you know me by now?

story summary from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Before_Sunset / Before Sunrise
quotes from http://www.finestquotes.com/movie_quotes/movie/Before%20Sunrise/page/0.htm

longing for a moment of fool's paradise
bizarre encounters
precious memories
nothing's planned
you came by unexpectedly
the sweetness the bitterness
you were a part of my life
and now you are gone

longing for a moment of sweet fantasy
stars and moonlight
witnesses to our lonesome night
nothing's planned
we chatted and fondled til dawn
the tenderness the miseries
you were a part of my life
and now you are gone

back to the cruel reality
we both dread
holding on to the moments
to remember
deep in my heart

Je t'aime ~minw

2010-10-13T23:57:00.001+08:00

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

Verse 1
Let me tell you about a girl who changed my world
I don't know just how she's doin' that
she's on my mind, she's takin' my time
I'm loosin' my way but now she's bringin' me back

She's my Ipod, I got her on REPLAY
I LOVE THE WAY SHE LIES and she's making me wanna say
the DJ GOT US FALLIN' IN LOVE
We like DYNAMITE, and I just can't get enough

Pre Chorus
What goes up must come down
now baby your not around
I'm layin' all alone in the middle of the night

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

Verse 2
Let me tell you 'bout a girl who changed my life
She's a triple threat and she's just my type
Voice of a goddess,
can dance to this flow,
she be turnin' heads everywhere that she goes

She's my Ipod, I got her on REPLAY
I LOVE THE WAY SHE LIES and she's making me wanna say
the DJ GOT US FALLIN' IN LOVE
We like DYNAMITE, and I just can't get enough

Pre Chorus
What goes up must come down
now baby your not around
I'm layin' all alone in the middle of the night

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

2010-10-10T00:16:00.019+08:00

~~Stupid in love~~
im just so blinded.

Let me tell you something
you are my sweet nothing,
my perfect wanderlust
Never been so in love in my whole life
I left the my heart burning
it comes and go and it is still all alone
I just came to see what you would do
If I gave you a chance to make things right
So I made it even though someone
Told me that this would be nothing but a waste of time
And she was right, hmm
Don't understand it
Blood on your hands
And still you insist on repeatedly trying to tell me lies
And i just don't know why

Oh, this is stupid,I'm not stupid
Don't talk to me like i'm stupid (stupid in love)
I still love you but I just can't do this
I may be dumb but I'm not stupid.

My new nick name is 'you idiot' (such an idiot)
Hmm that's what my friends are calling me
When they see me yelling into my phone
They telling me let go, he is not the one
I thought i saw your potential
Guess that's what made me dumb
He don't want it, not like you want it
Scheming and cheating
Oh girl why do you waste your time?
You know he ain't right
They're telling me this, I don't wanna listen
But you insist on repeatedly trying to tell me excuses
time after time i hear all the same
now i need something real

And I just don't know why.
Tryna make this work
But you act like it's alright
Silly of me to keep holding on
But the dust cap is off
You don't know what you've lost
And you won't realise 'til i'm gone, gone, gone
Which one of us is really gone?
No I'm not stupid in love, just blindly in love.

2010-10-06T14:54:00.001+08:00

What do you do when you're stuck,
Because the one that you love,
Has pushed you away
And you can't deal with the pain,
And now you're trying to fix me,
Mend what he did,
I'll find the piece that i'm missing,
But I still miss him,
I miss him, i'm missing him,
Oh I miss him, I miss him i'm missng him

And you're sitting in the front row,
Wana be first in line,
Sitting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love has still hit me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.

He's the thorn in my flesh
That I can't take out
He's stealing my breath
When you're around,
And now you're trying to convince me,
He wasn't worth it,
But you can't complete me,
It's the thought that he's missing,

I miss him, I'm missing him,
Oh I miss him I miss him, i'm missing him,

And you're standing in the front row,
Wana be first in line,
Sitting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love has still hit me,
Live a broken arrow,
Like a broken arrow.

What do you do
When your hearts in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time

And you're
Standing in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Sitting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love still hit me,
Like a broken arrow.

Like a broken arrow...

Pixie Lott "Mama Do" in Sims 3

so cute~!!

2010-10-02T18:48:00.004+08:00

Belle and Sebastian writes about Y tv show

One of my fav song from the upcoming album.

Make me dance i want to surrender
Your familiar arms i remember
We've been going transcontinental
Got no car we just take a rental

But we don't have the money
(money makes the wheels and the world go round)
Forget about it honey

Make me dance i want to surrender
Your familiar arms i remember
Everybody's talking about you
Every word's a whisper without you

But we don't have the money
(money makes the wheels and the world go round)
Forget about it honey
Trouble's never far away when you're around

I didn't see it coming
I'm just not in the running

Take me on a train 'cos i'm not flying
I can see the world from a different side
Read about us in the morning papers
When we make it alive

I didn't see it coming
I'm just not in the running

And we don't need a lifetime
We're following the right line

2010-10-02T18:12:00.000+08:00

Everywhere is still
Everything is restless in my heart
I hate the way this feels
Suddenly i'm scared to be apart
The days are dark when you're not around
The air is getting hard to breathe
I wish that you would just put me down
I wish that i could go to sleep

Loving you is suicide
I don't know should go or should i stay
I'm tryna to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late
But i heard you say you love me
That's the part i can't forget
And i wish that you come save me
Cos i'm standing over the edge

I should let you go
Tell myself the things i need to hear
But my brain is why you're wrong
That's why i'm loving you when you're not here
Feels like i drown in your every word
And every breath that's in between
Somehow you got me where it really hurts
It's killing every part of me

Loving you is suicide
I don't know should go or should i stay
I'm tryna to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late
But i heard you say you love me
That's the part i can't forget
And i wish that you come save me
Boy cos i'm standing over the edge

Loving you is suicide
And my world's about to break
And i... had as much as i can take
And love is a long way down

Loving you is suicide
And it's getting harder everyday
I'm tryna to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late
And i'm way past every moment
But i'm still determined to fight
And i know it's taking all my strength
To give emotions alive
Loving you is suicide

2010-10-02T18:00:00.000+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Joseph Vincent]
Always thought you and I were perfect
I could tell you from the start
Thought you were gonna be my man, but then you left tore me apart
And now you're gone
You ain't by my side, got me askin' questions
Cause everything we were was all a lie
When were you gonna tell me
oh how you feel
Why you gotta wait so long to tell me it was all unreal

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[stepheniegee]
Everyday I sat by just waiting,
For you to come back home
But then i saw you with a girl
Broke my heart, and left me cold
Seems so unreal,
Can't grasp this thought, couldn't sleep at all last night
Cause just realized it was all a lie
When were you gonna tell me
Just how you feel
Left me for someone else and here i am caught up in tears

2010-09-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, I'll tell you something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

Oh please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand.
Now let me hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide.

Yeah, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide.

Yeh, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll feel that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

2010-09-20T14:02:00.000+08:00

My eyes are painted red
The canvas of my soul,
Slowly breaking down,again
Today I heard the news
The stories getting old
When will we see the end?
Of the days, we bleed for what we need
To forgive, forget, move on
Cause we've got

One life to live
One love to give
One chance to keep from falling
One heart to break
One soul to take us
Not for sake us,
Only one
Only one

The writing's on the wall
Those who came before
Left pictures frozen still, in time
You say you want it all
But whose side you fighting for?
I sit and wonder why
There are nights, we sleep, while others they weep
With regret, repent, be strong
Cause we've got

One life to live
One love to give
One chance to keep from falling
One heart to break
One soul to take us
Not for sake us
Only One
Only One

Just you and I
Under one sky

One life to live
One love to give
One chance to keep from falling
One heart to break
One soul to take us
Not for sake us
Only One
Only One

2010-09-11T17:42:00.001+08:00

awhh i miss you already...

Synopsis:

Erin’s (Drew Barrymore) wry wit and unfiltered frankness charm newly single Garrett (Justin Long) over beer, bar trivia and breakfast the next morning. Their chemistry sparks a full-fledged summer fling, but neither expects it to last once Erin heads home to San Francisco and Garrett stays behind for his job in New York City. But when six weeks of romping through the city inadvertently become meaningful, neither is sure they want it to end. And while Garrett’s friends, Box (Jason Sudeikis) and Dan (Charlie Day), joke about his pre-flight calorie-cutting and his full-time relationship with his cell phone, they don’t like losing their best drinking buddy to yet another rocky romance. At the same time, Erin’s high-strung, overprotective married sister, Corrine (Christina Applegate), wants to keep Erin from heading down an all-too-familiar road. But despite the opposite coasts, the nay-saying friends and family, and a few unexpected temptations, the couple just might have found something like love, and with the help of a lot of texting, sexting and late-night phone calls, they might actually go the distance.

more.

Y this show hell loads! =)
i weeped at least thrice! i Y Drew.

I'm always here
Waiting for you all alone
Eyes of the night
Just to see, see you home
There's two of us in here
The only only
There's two of us in here
And it's only I'm always here
All alone without you now
Lights of the night
Just to see you somehow
There's two of us in here
The only only
There's two of us in here
And it's only Just you wait
Just you wait Just you wait
Just you wait
If you run if you run
I'll wait
I'll wait for you

2010-08-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

GO

Little change of the heart, little light in the dark
Little hope that you just might find your way up out of here
'Cause you've been hiding for days, wasted and wasting away
But I got a little hope, today you'll face your fears

Yeah, I know it's not easy
I know that it's hard, follow the lights to the city

Get up and go, take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back, just go, take a breath, move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend
Yeah, I know you can make it through 'cause I believe in you
So let's go put up a fight, let's go make everything alright
Go on and take a shot, go give it all you got

Oh, yeah, I know it's not easy
I know that it's hard, no, it's not always pretty

Get up and go, take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back, just go, take a breath, move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on

Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring
Are you sitting down? I need to tell you something
Enough is enough, you can stop waiting to breathe
And don't wait up for me

Get up and go, take a chance and be strong
You could spend your whole life holding on
And don't look back, just go, take a breath, move along
You could spend your whole life holding on

Get up and go, take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
But don't look back, just go, take a breath, move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on

Don't spend your whole life holding on, yeah

2010-08-26T00:08:00.014+08:00

some random quotes i found...
i will post em whenever i feel like it.

FB Album : A piece of my mind.

2010-08-24T00:07:00.002+08:00

One day you will , i hope i will...

You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now

But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet
Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of
One day you will
Oh one day you will

this song says it all~

2010-08-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

if only i can turn back time
i wont do things that hurt you
or make you upset over my selfishness
i was a tryant and you accepted it
i created a din and you endured it
i made noises and you conquered it
i was so bad and you were so good
too good for me perhaps.

i wish i dote on you as much as you did
love you the way you did
think for you the way you did
i wish i wish i wish~

i kept asking myself what was wrong back then
and realised thinking of these just makes me sadder
cos i regretted every move i made
too late now.
things aint the same anymore.
will time really heal?
some memories are just hard to erase
some feeling are just hard to chase away
some regrets are just hard to forgive myself.
wish i had a chance
to say im sorry
i wont do it if i can turn back time.
i swear i wont.
=(

2010-08-19T00:23:00.003+08:00

ENJOY~*

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same

Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Oh, I do love you

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel like I'm alive
When everything else is a fade
Without a doubt you're on my side

Heaven has been away too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh, your love

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

I have come to understand
The way it is, it's not a secret anymore
'Cause we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark, now I understand

I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is

I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands

2010-08-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

all thanks to Josh for bringing me to this show n Yaya for the equally adorable imitation of Agnes!
im so obsessed with this lil girl now!
i got the video in my phone and watch it when im dozing off at work and influencing people ard me.
=)

i wanna catch the 3D, anybody !?

2010-07-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

you can
think you can get free, you think you won't need me
that you're gonna get you somethin better,
but you know that we're in this forever,
and you can
think you can walk out even with your doubts,
but you know that we're in this together,
you can try to push me from you
nothing you do will keep us a part

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
ain't nothin you can do about it,
it's been too long, it's been too strong cause we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)

now i can say that i would not care, if you were not there,
tell myself that i'll be fine without ya
but i would die if i was not around ya,
and i can try to convince you i don't need to be with you,
but my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,
what can i do, love is like glue there's no way to .. tear us a part
cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) ain't nothin i can do about it,
it's been too long, it's been too strong yes, we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)

there's nothing i'd rather do, than to sit with you forever
can't think of nothin better than to be stuck with you.

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) ain't nothin we can do about it

2010-07-18T13:40:00.001+08:00

know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love, then you softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love

How deep is your love, how deep is your love
I really mean to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest, darkest hour
You're my savior when I fall

And you may not think, I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love

How deep is your love, how deep is your love
I really mean to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love, then you softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love

How deep is your love, how deep is your love
I really mean to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

How deep is your love, how deep is your love
I really mean to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

How deep is your love, how deep is your love
I really mean to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

DISCO .

2010-07-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

Splitzer shots! =)

my most fave splitzer shot =)

2010-07-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

sick
n
tired
of
all
these

all i want is a simple simple , really simple
a simple life
with a special someone
all to myself
a simple satisfying job
a little attention
a little bit more time
a little bit more chances
just a little bit of everything.

To find the universal elements enough; to find the air and the water exhilarating; to be refreshed by a morning walk or an evening saunter... to be thrilled by the stars at night; to be elated over a bird's nest or a wildflower in spring - these are some of the rewards of the simple life.
~John Burroughs

2010-07-14T23:10:00.001+08:00

spent a great deal of time at home these 2 days, thanks to MC.
otherwise i'd be coughing the hell out in office. Felt bad irritating ppl with my constant coughings.
glad im able to recuperate at home, plenty of rest, water, liangteh and medicine.
all the medicine doesnt seems to help much too.
the last doc tt i last seen said i have throat infection. argHhh.

during these 2 days,
ive been thinking alot, alot alot alot.

oh BTW, i've received my letter of confirmation for P/T course in Kaplan.
Bachelor of Arts (Communication & Media Management)
YES! to many, i may be wasting my time and $$$ yet again.
im just giving myself another chance to improve myself.
PLS BUCK UP ARII !! !!
you are not proving to others but yourself!
it's gonna be a big sacrifice, be it shopping, spendings, time out with friends.
just endure for 15 mthssss!!
give your BEST!

Y
since the start of this, i've never expected things to come this far.
so deep so real so hard to get out of it.

we have been on the illegal side of the walkway,
you held my hands and guide me along
you pulled me closer and made me believe
but have you ever wondered what will be left of me
when you let go of my hands
when you decided to say goodbye...

you made me believe
you made me stand strong
i wish to believe and have faith too.
i wish to close my eyes and see nothing but you
i hear no one but only your voice

my love for you only gets deeper each time
im sinking deeper im falling deeping
madly in love.
each time the reality gets clearer
i gets slapped hard in the face
i get hurt deeper, so hurt.

im through with something that is never going to happen,
something that should have never happen in the first place.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Commitment
Being Alone
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2010-07-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

My video/song stopover. check out my Blip.fm

2010-07-04T23:23:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i'd fly high up into the sky,
i felt like firecrackers in my head.
and my life lit up,
i see my stars shining brightly.

Sometimes i'd fall right down to the ground,
it hurts so much that when i closed my eyes,
i see my true self.
and realised i've been so hurt deep inside.

what is there left of me?
what are my options?
where are my directions?
should i continue walking towards you baby?

is this love, is this love?
answer me honestly,
i need an answer.
i need something to hold on to.

2010-06-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

Am i just expecting a little too much for my life ?

2010-06-25T23:34:00.002+08:00

Mr Brightside - Killers

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

Cause I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...

2010-06-22T00:13:00.006+08:00

Without words

i shouldn’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next

My lips were surprised
It came without a word
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore,
and that you’re not here anymore
otherwise, it’ll be just the same like before

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised

Without a word, tears starts falling down
Without a word, my heart is broken
Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me

=(

2010-06-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

Nice songs they got here.
i love the lyrics. so heartfelt =,)

NEED YOU NOW.
Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor..
Reaching for the phone, cause i cant fight it anymore..

And i wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one and I'm all alone and i need you now,
Said i wouldn't call but i lost all control and i need you now ,
And i don't know how, i can do without, i just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door,
wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before,

and i wonder if I ever crossed your mind,
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one and i'm a little drunk and i need you now,
Said i wouldn't call but I lost all control and i need you now,
And i don't know how i can do without, i just need you now,

Woh ooo woh
Yes i would rather hurt then feel nothing at all,
it's a quarter after one, im alone and i need you now,
and i said i wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and i need you now
And i don't know how i can do without, i just need you now,

I just need you now........
Oh baby i need you now......

All We'd Ever Need
Boy it’s been all this time
And I can’t get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me

I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me

Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I’ve prayed for you to say

I should’ve been chasing you
I should’ve been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should’ve said all the things that I kept inside of me
And maybe I could’ve made you believe
That what we had was all we’d ever need

My friends think I’m moving on
But the truth is I’m not that strong
And nobody knows it but me

And I’ve kept all the words you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me

But if you’re happy I’ll get through somehow
But the truth is that I’ve been screaming out

I should’ve been chasing you
You should’ve been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
Oh you should’ve said all the things
That I kept inside of me
And maybe you could’ve made me believe
That what we had girl
Oh that what we had, what we had
It was all we’d ever need
It was all we’d ever need

2010-05-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

Miss Sixty Spring/Summer
2 chic jackets tt caught my eyes.
have checked but they r not in stores yet! hope they will arrived by July! =)

which is nicer !?

2010-05-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

thelastsong

Seventeen-year-old Veronica 'Ronnie' Miller's life was turned upside-down when her parents divorced and her father moved from New York City to Tybee Island, Georgia. Three years later, she remains angry and alienated from her parents, especially her father ...until her mother decides it would be in everyone's best interest if she spent the summer on Tybee Island with him. Ronnie's father, a former concert pianist and teacher, is living a quiet life in the beach town, immersed in creating a work of art that will become the centerpiece of a local church. The tale that unfolds is an unforgettable story about love in its myriad forms - first love, the love between parents and children - that demonstrates, as only a Nicholas Sparks novel can, the many ways that deeply felt relationships can break our hearts ...and heal them.

i practically weeped throughout the 2nd half of the show.
it's a nice show. the storyline is good. =)

"Love is fragile. We may not be the best caretaker but we will try our best to protect it against all odds."

"Being in love can be alil crazy"

2010-05-15T19:39:00.001+08:00

hearts boa! =)

2010-05-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

And when I see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around
Turns you around

If you feel discouraged
When there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seams
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's A to Z

This is fact, not fiction
For the first time in years
All the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03
And on your machine, I slur a plea
For you to come home
But I know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay

This is fact, not fiction
For the first time in years...

ps; i will always be here for you, just like you tried to.

2010-05-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

hearts dancing. i love their dance.
expressing their emotions and playing out the story.

ps; i'd love to dance my sorrows & frustrations away too.

2010-05-03T21:52:00.024+08:00

Been listening to these 2 songs from BoyslikeGirls.
LOVE DRUNK and SOMEONE LIKE YOU.

the vocalist's live + acoustic performance is pretty good =)
*hearts guitar*
i just wish the video never stops, cos i cant help but replay it all over againnn n againnnn.

LOVE DRUNK @Stripped Perfomances

(Hey, hey, hey, hey!)

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(Taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad, it hurt
But, girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(Okay!)
'Cause just one sip
(Okay!)
Would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
But now it's over

(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!)

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning round a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
(Stuck in black and white)
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh, girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(Okay!)
'Cause just one sip
(Okay!)
Would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
But now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab
'Cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
Now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
But now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(Okay!)
'Cause just one sip
(Okay!)
Would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever
But now it's over
Now it's over
I still taste it on my tongue
Now it's over

Y the lyrics
SOMEONE LIKE YOU

I'm wearing thin
I couldn't tell you the city I'm in
The streets and the buildings
And places I've been
Or when the stars go when it's daylight again
Or where the time went
Oh, who can save me now?

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

So sing me a song I know all the words to
And I'll sing along
Could you be my savior?
I've been out here too long
And I've just been lookin' for somewhere to belong
Been holdin' on
So can you save me now?

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

When the stars explode
And I'm all alone
When they start to see the smoke
When I finally burn out
I'll need someone to carry me home
Safe and sound

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

ps; i heart you

2010-04-26T23:11:00.003+08:00

Christmas,Christmas time is near

Time for toys and time for cheers
We're been good but we can't last
Hurry Christmas,hurry fast

Want a plane that loops the loop
I still want a hula hoop
We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas dont be late

We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas dont be late.

and it's not even near Christmas yet...
Want a plane that loops the loop
Me,I wait a hula hoop
We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas, don't be late

i noe last year's Christmas has past few months back.
and it's not even near Christmas yet...

dont you Y Xmas as much as i do?
how i wish everyday can be one merry xmas. =)

2010-04-26T00:34:00.014+08:00

HOLGA or DIANA ?

◦Size: 22cm (8.65in) x 17,5cm (7in) x 9,5cm (3.75in)

◦Weight: 730g (1.6lb)

◦Format: all 120 medium format film (color negative, slide, b&w)

◦Lens: Plastic 60mm, f/8

◦Focus: manual zone focus with four distance settings

◦Approximate 35mm format equivalent focal length: 38mm

◦Aperture settings: f/8, f/11

◦Shutter speeds: 1/125, "B"
◦Flash: Color gel system (yellow, red, blue, clear), powered by 2 "AA" batteries
◦Uncoupled advance & shutter release for multiple & partial exposures

Half-frame Holga by Buzzy Sullivan

more about holga

Diana F+ Edelweiss

sooo pretty isnt she?

Dating back to the early 1960’s, the all-plastic Diana camera is a cult legend. Our brand new Diana+ is a faithful reproduction and a loving homage to the classic Diana - with a few new features tossed in.
Features • Two shutter speeds - "N" for normal daytime or “B” for unlimited indoor and nighttime exposures.

Diana F+ Black Jack
now clad in a super-sleek all-black finish.

Diana F+ Hong Meow
To commemorate the very first stop of the Diana World Tour in Hong Kong, we’re thrilled to present this exclusive limited edition clone of the Diana F+ camera – the Diana F+ Hong Meow!

• Two image sizes available -12 full-frame shots (5.2x5.2cm) or 16 smaller square images - (4.2x4.2cm)
• Diana+ Flash with color gel filters for color-splashing
• Diana+ Flash Adaptor (to use with standard hotshoe flashes)
• Multiple and Partial Exposure
• Removable lens for Pinhole Function
Camera Type Zone Focus
Microsite http://microsites.lomography.com/diana/products/clones
Film Type 120

Lens ::

With a Diana F+ in hand, it’s nice to take a straight-off, one-shot image of your favorite person, animal, or thing. But what about going past that large, single full-frame? How about slicing & dicing it into halves and quarters?

so cool yah !? =)

theory of diana

Researching-in-progress

2010-04-25T15:39:00.001+08:00

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile =)

2010-04-25T11:10:00.002+08:00

been so lazy to post a proper entry here.
haha.
spent my weekends out, taking photos and playing wit Analogue cameras.
Went to Tanjong Pagar this week.
nice places but i reckon my shots will be "~chui~
So here i present you my
Holga debut
All I need is somewhere I feel the grass beneath my feet
A walk on sand
A fire, I can warm my hands
My joy will be complete

pls click on the link as they are in my FB.

have a great weekend peeps!!!!
it's soooo precious!!!!
it's gonna be OT for the hell whole of my next week.
so you may send me sms or words of "hi r u still alive not dead?"
but better not "movie ? drinks ? shopping ?" cos i'll cry out loud all the way frm chaichee!
lol

2010-04-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

Marc by Marc Jacobs

Bow Wow Wow Big Percy Cross Body Bag

Bow Wow Wow Linda Clutch

Totally Turnlock Natasha

2010-04-18T00:55:00.002+08:00

X Japan - Tears (Live 2009 Hong Kong)

this song never stops stirring your emotions inside and makes u wana sing along.

Y "EIEN" =)

BoA LIVE TOUR 2010 ～IDENTITY～　告知映像

YYYcant Ylay my hands on the dvd !!!! ppl pls keep a look-out for it plsss!!!!

super in Y with the BOA now!!

2010-04-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

1st miu miu bag tt i lay my eyes on.

MIU MIU Y Large denim tote
Miu Miu reinvents the ladylike quilted tote in blue denim for a contemporary spin on a classic carryall. With a navy leather trim and crystal-embellished clasp fastening, this luxe new-season accent is perfect for weekends in the city.

ard SGD $1.5k

2010-04-11T19:39:00.018+08:00

jus wanna share...
cute music video.
catchy music. =)

The Magic Numbers - Forever Lost

im forever lost~~~~

B.o.b. Nothing On You featuring Bruno Mars

There's no much nonsense
It's on my conscience
I'm thinking baby I should get it out
And I don't wanna sound redundant
But I was wondering if there was something that you wanna know
But never mind that we should let it go
Cos we don't wanna be a t.v episode
And all the bad thoughts just let them go ...

2010-04-04T21:42:00.056+08:00

High price of peer pressure
By Fiona Chan

A friend recently bought an apartment and e-mailed me to tell me the good news.

'Did I tell you I finally bought a place? It's in Bukit Timah,' he said. 'Have you bought yours yet?'

'Congratulations,' I replied. 'Yup, we bought an apartment just across the road from our old place.'

'Huh? Why don't you want to move somewhere else?' he asked.

'Well, I really like our location,' I said. 'It's quite close to town and the traffic there is smooth.'

'I prefer Bukit Timah,' came the quick response. 'I think my location is better.'

The rest of the conversation was about how much I had paid for my home, down to the dollar amount per sq ft ('Mine is cheaper,' my friend said); what loan I had taken ('I guess you're more conservative than I am'); and which contractor I was using for my renovations ('Send me your quote, I want to see if mine is better').

By the time I'd finished talking to him, I felt as exhausted as if I had run a marathon - against someone who had decided from the get-go that I had already lost.

Some call it a rat race. To me, it feels more like a shooting competition, only using your friends as targets.

Of course, most of the conversations I have with my friends about Important Life Decisions don't go like this.

While we sometimes compare cars, homes and diamond rings, invariably we all end up assuring others that they've made the best decisions for their own lives. That's what friends are for, after all.

But every once in a while, one of my peers will interrogate me on my lifestyle in a way that makes me feel like there's an invisible but giant scoreboard in the sky.

Not only do they want to know everything I've bought and how much I paid, but they also want to tell me why their choices were all better than mine.

My new home is 10 minutes from Orchard Road? Theirs is 81/2 minutes away. I can walk to the MRT from my place? They'll have an MRT station too, you know - in 2020. And a new hospital nearby. And a park connector.

Wait till you have children, one of my friends told me. The comparisons will get 10 times worse: 'So how's your kid doing? Mine's taking Japanese and Arabic classes, got his Grade 8 in piano last month, and has taken up abstract painting.'

Most of the time, these hyper-competitive conversations are as amusing as they are annoying. But having too many of them can make it feel like the natural process of becoming an adult has turned into a dispiriting game of one-upmanship.

To be fair, it's not hard to understand this behaviour.

For years, my peers and I went through pretty much the same life experiences: We attended the same schools, had the same extracurricular activities, and were mostly offered the same opportunities.

But despite these shared paths in youth, not everyone is finding his first steps in adulthood equally easy.

Some save up for a few years to buy their first flat in Sengkang, and then wait three more years for it to be ready. Others, often with their parents' help, drive BMWs and think nothing of buying a million-dollar condominium for their first home.

To make things worse, even though my former classmates and I may have done similarly well in school, in many cases our income levels started diverging almost from the moment we started work.

This isn't necessarily because some of us work harder or are smarter than the rest, but simply because different industries and companies pay differently, and sometimes all it boils down to is being in the right place at the right time.

So it's little wonder that people in my generation, born and bred on a diet of meritocracy, are finding it hard to swallow any disparity in starting pay and starter assets.

To reassure themselves that they're still on the right track, they constantly compare themselves with their peers. In the process, sometimes unconsciously, they end up putting everyone else down.

It's been drilled into us that we should not judge someone by his possessions and just be content with what we have. But in real life, this state of zen is almost impossible to achieve, especially when you're counting the days to your next pay cheque while your friends have lost count of the designer stuff they own.

Still, life doesn't have to be a zero-sum game. For people my age, it wasn't so long ago when having a friend with a big house meant only one thing: more room in which all of us could play.

Among my closest friends, one person's windfall still has a way of becoming everyone's good fortune. Whoever is earning more or has just received a big bonus will insist on paying for dinner, and those who live in bigger or centrally located houses usually offer to host gatherings.

This can only happen because we're all open with one another about how much we earn and spend - and that is in turn possible only because we don't see our friends' successes as somehow being a reflection on our own failures.

Of course, this harmony may not last after we all have kids. So I'm going to train mine to play the ukulele and become experts in lawn croquet.

That way, the only thing they'll ever be able to compare with their peers meaningfully is how lousy their parents were.

fiochan@sph.com.sg

this article is taken from sunday times
http://www.afralug.com/wsforum/showthread.php?tid=3668&pid=35071#pid35071

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MINW says : aint it so true?
Now that the society has become so competitive. At every point of time, we should constantly remind ourselves not to let this kind of competitive lifestyle devours us, pollute our thinkings and change us.
There is never ending for such uneccessary comparisons.
Not being the better ones doesnt mean you are lousy, it doesnt mean you will lose out.
And being the best among the rest doesnt mean much anyway,
perhaps happy for a short while but sad, cos there's a price to pay.
It doesnt prove that you are the best, perhaps in that aspects, yes but in other ways, no.

For example, new design of bags will arrive in stores every season. Are we supposed to go grab every design, so people will see "wow she has the latest design!"
I believe many women will feel the same. Im not excluded. But i wont throw my entire savings on that in order to own that bag. (thank god im not.haha)

Talking about this, it reminds of my younger school days when my mom will stress me out with comparisons from grades and now that im older and started working, income and job prospect.
Im never the "BEST" or the "BETTER" student.
It just dreads me every time when she tell me that her friends' kids score better, even if it's the same school, same teacher or whatsoever. I felt so sorry for myself, for not doing better than the rest.

Every one of us are just make out for different things, different carreer, different lifestyle.
im not cut out for academic educations but i've own interest and forte.
Some things that i can do which not everyone in this world even has that interest.

We are the ruler of our own life, we make our own choices.

2010-04-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

Oriole Cafe & Bar's -
Set Lunch 5 Apr - 9 Apr

A lazy Sunday brunch & cafe experience awaits!

We cant make it for the lunch set, so shall await to try the menu with Joshz on a sunday!! =D

2010-04-03T21:26:00.002+08:00

Coffee or Life?

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university lecturer. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups:
porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain looking and some expensive and exquisite,
telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand,
the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups."

"Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life,but the quality of Life doesn't change."
"Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."

So folks, don't let the cups drive you...enjoy the coffee instead.

2010-03-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

Who's getting me this agnes b cap Albert!?

thanks Joshz!!!! LOL
had a great time at Oriole Cafe &bar with her ytd.
so she's giving me sth i like. (I WISH!!!!)

the ham and cheese toast with scrambled egg layers under sunny side up on top. yummmmilicious!

nice spicy calamari!

ice vanilla vs iced mocha

dark chocolate mousse with jelly and floss.

--ashz : wow tt's a pair of big eyes...!!!
--Joshz : cover up lah! ur eyes so miniiii.

--*pouts*
--Joshz : but my eyes r big what!

--ashz : wEE here presenting my "BIG" eyes
--ashz : forget it lah! small eyes win !!!!

--ashz : small or big, i still love U joshz!

i'd a GREAT SATURDAY!!
goodnight peeps!
hope u guys had a great weekendddd!! =)
sad to say but tmr's a MONDAY!
back to reality. back to work.

2010-03-27T00:26:00.001+08:00

Life- 4 simple letters, yet so complicated
Love- 4 simple letters, yet so confusing
Time- 4 simple letters, yet there is never enough
Pain- 4 simple letters, yet it takes so long to heal
Words- 5 simple letters, yet there aren’t enough to express
Beauty- 6 simple letters, yet so hard to see
Regrets- 6 simple letters, yet they never seem to disappear
Destiny- 7 simple letters, yet so unpredictable
Silence- 7 simple letters, yet it can be so loud
Sadness- 7 simple letters, yet it lingers everywhere
Feelings- 8 simple letters, yet so unexplainable
Mistakes- 8 simple letters, yet they can never be erased.

i cant embed the video here.
hence, here's a scene from Love Actually which i loved the most. i weeped each time i see this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idHrz_xqwsk

2010-03-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

When we welcome new things with our open arms,
we unknowingly left behind our old things behind.
Well, there's always gain and loss.
i lost my bunch of keys with Mickey mouse key header, mphosis tissue pouch (for the 3rd time!!!!)
and some misc stuffs.
my ipod was supposed to be inside until i decided to move it into one of the outter pocket of the stella backpack!
THANK GOD!!!!

i got this Stella McCartney bag, can be easily converted to a backpack.
lightweight and not flimpsy.
most imptly, it's comfy to hug and reads "ME"!

oh i like this.. but shant get it.
how often will i wear?
haha

im thinking if i shld replace the Agnes B pouch that i lost
decided to a pouch tt doesnt cost tt much, so i wont be sad when i lost or dirty.

oh on top of that, i spent quite a bit this month.
Birthday gifts and cheering myself up etc.
Shopping therapy DOES work wonders!

2010-03-18T22:58:00.004+08:00

Lady gaga ft Beyonce
Telephone

Been listening to Adam Lambert. he's turning up the heat! *roarrs*

Adam Lambert
For your entertainment

Time for Miracles

Whataya Want From Me

2010-03-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

hhiihihi!
it's been weeks or rather monthssss since i last blogged a decent entry.
Reasons being ::
1. Twitter has become my daily "blog" update
2. Nothing to rant about
3. Been spending lotsa time with my friends.
4. Drinking jagerbomb and baileys on the rock.
5. improving my lifestyle
6. catching up with the box office
7. writing story on my phone
8. planning my future
9. shopping (more or less very much controlled alr k!)
10.deciding btn iphone n BB or just stay with this phone!?
11.been blasting Muse and new playlist in my ipod on my way to work
12.happily chatting til wee hours at night before i sleep.

what a short n sweet update aint it ?
haha i'm getting very lazy to blog like before.
will try my best still =p

Nike's Tiger jacket!
dont i look cute in it?

ashz & joshz

presenting our new haircut!
Even an angmoh at Kpo complimented that my hair is nice, dunno if it's cos of the colour or the cut.
whichever way, i like the purple colour =)

2010-03-06T19:34:00.003+08:00

Boa - Performances at Music Lover.

i feel like cutting this hairdo. jus wanna keep cutting shorter! =P
love her new look.
love the style.
love her star studded wristcuffs.
love her arrow earrings.
la la la~

2010-02-15T12:56:00.004+08:00

I’m A Believer
Originally posted on Sayoni Speak

Love. Amour. Pyaar. Ai. No matter what language, what culture, the L word dominates our thinking, our lives, the media. Finding (and keeping) love, is the universal theme that connects humankind.

It might be partly the fault of media, that we have been absorbed into the myth of “love”. It begins with fairytales as a kid, when the Prince falls in love with the beautiful princess, and they live happily ever after. Then the movies, songs, which all seem to speak of this. Love has a powerful grip on the human imagination and consciousness, to the point where we almost seem obsessed with it.

Love has a special place in the queer culture, because it is the chief, if not only justification for our existence. If procreation was the only object of human existence, then we can’t exist. But humans are built for more than procreation, we are built to find affection and happiness. Love is the shield we use against religious fundamentalists – how can anyone question two people in love, or deny them the right to? Love is the reason we decide to live against societal norms.

But I, stand to question this “love”. I do not deny it exists, I do not deny that people feel it, or that it can be real or true. I do not question that we can be extremely happy spending time with the people we love.

Love is, after all, no matter how much may be written about it, a chemical reaction, a firing of synapses, in our brains. Every emotion we feel is, for that matter. If our emotions are real, so is love.

Then what am I questioning? I am questioning, here, the power of love. I am questioning the axiom that love can overcome anything, is more important than anything, is the ultimate ideal we need to strive for. I am taking the bold step of slaughtering the sacred cow of Love, if not for anyone but myself.

As much as love makes people happy, it makes fools of us all, even the best of us. Love leads to irrationality, self-deception and bad decisions – do not tell me that none of you have never made a bad decision when in love. Love makes people stay in abusive relationships, endure bad treatment, try to keep failing relationships afloat, hang on when there is no hope in sight.

More importantly, I am questioning the assumption that love is necessary for a relationship, or to find your life-partner. It was an axiom I was questioning for a while, and my disbelief became complete, when ironically, I recently watched the season finale of A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila. Watching her make the same mistake twice, makes me realise that in the search for that perfect love, we overlook the search for our perfect mate. Not that I believe there is a “perfect mate” – there can be close approximations, but nothing more.

Love and relationship CAN exist without each other. You can love someone, but not be in a relationship with them, and you can be in a relationship with someone, but not be in love with them (to add another dimension to the situation, you can be not in love with them, but maybe still love them). The mistake that most of us make is that we assume that when love happens, the natural consequence is a relationship, and should be, and should be what we work towards. Sometimes it is just not possible to have a relationship with the person you love, whether it be reciprocal or not. The woman you love deeply could be an unstable, cheating drug-addict. Or maybe she is commitment-phobic. Or maybe she is a married woman with kids. Or maybe she is simply needy and clingy and impossible to live with. Maybe you have a fundamental personality mismatch. You get the idea – just because you love someone, does not mean you need to be with them.

But I hear the objections now: how is a relationship possible without love? The concept that love is absolutely necessary for a relationship is a rather modern, and somewhat western, concept – for thousands of years, our ancestors have been conducting marriage and relationships without the need for such a device. In some of these luckier arrangements, the parties eventually learn and love each other. Do not get me wrong: I am hardly advocating a return back to those days where you let your parents choose a mate – that would be ridiculous. However, my point is this: in doing all the choosing for yourself, and taking the extensive time to get to know the person beforehand, in this process, is being in love an absolutely necessary step? You can be really fond of that person, or simply love them, but is being “in love”, necessary? Ideally, you want to have both. Ideally, a strong love and a strong relationship go together, and that would be utopia. But I am sure all of us know that this is difficult, if not impossible to find.

Secondly, in my experience, stability and passion rarely go together. Oh sometimes it does, and I am most certainly jealous of those lucky ones. The mad crazy passionate love that we are all looking for, often does not come paired with a stable, loving relationship. Often, it is either/or, or somewhere along the spectrum. But of course, being human, we pick the passionate and crazy, not the stable and maybe-not-so-intense ones, because the first appeals more to our short-term sensory experience, hardly thinking of the long-term plan (like Tila did. Twice.).

In the end, I don’t believe in love. I believe in relationships. I don’t believe in finding the one true love – I believe in finding the one good relationship. I believe in finding someone whom you can have a good dynamic with, someone who makes you happy, someone who treats you well. I believe in finding personality fits, someone whom you can talk with even when the looks fade, and the sex ends. I believe in holding on to a good relationship, with or without “love” (as we understand it), and working to maintain it. Love CAN accompany such a find, but only sometimes. When years into the relationship, the love fades, only the strength of the relationship can keep itself afloat. Love is fickle, and like I’ve said before, a chemical reaction. A relationship is a lot more solid, a lot more real, and it is what will carry you through till “Death do us part”. And of course, I know that they can come together, being surrounded by real-life examples. But for every single one of those success stories, there are a lot more stories of heartbreak and pain.

I do realise this is a stand which can be easily misinterpreted for bitterness. It is after all, not fashionable to not believe in the power of love, and the ones who do not are clearly the “bitter singles”. But I do to an extent – I humbly recognise the power of love over our emotions and actions. I acknowledge that the next time I fall in love, I clearly will not be rational, just like any other person. But I hope to have learned from my past lessons and hold on to this single piece of clarifying belief.

I’m a Believer. But not in Love.

Perhaps, I’m indeed a Believer. But not in Love.

2010-02-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

Horoscope 2010, forecast for the 2010 year of the white Tiger

The coming 2010 year of the metal Tiger is around the corner. It looks like we've got mood swinging, vigorous and hard-working year ahead. As you might guess, coming 2010 year of the metal Tiger is passionate, honest and modest. Sun sign horoscope for the 2010 year of the Tiger like his animal sing is naturally forgiving, rarely holding grudges for long, it symbolizes eternal family values, rate highly friends support and care.

Yearly 2010 forecast and horoscope 2010 for your zodiac sign.

Tiger Personality
Tiger people are difficult to resist, for they are magnetic characters and their natural air of authority confers a certain prestige on them. They are tempestuous yet calm, warm-hearted yet fearsome, courageous in the face of danger yet yielding and soft in mysterious, unexpected places. They enjoy life full of challenges and unexpected events, like visiting unusual places and meet interesting outstanding people. Other people in their part are easily attracted by the tiger's enthusiasm and the course of life. Tiger person finds a pleasure in unpredictable, and while other people would rather make a backward step, he/she is not afraid to explore new and unusual. But it is not that simple to interest the tiger. What they really need is first-hand experience. Usually open and frank, these people are likely to withdraw and you can be aggressive when trapped. As soon as the tiger person has regained his/her sense of security his/her confidence also returns, enabling him/her to set out once more. These people usually tend to trust their instincts, though there is another side of their personality, which assesses situations thoughtfully before launch any actions. Their friends usually secretly admire their determination and optimism, though sometimes may find it complicated to share the tiger's enthusiasm and can be pushed away and left behind. In spite of the fact that tiger people can be courageous and generous friends, if they are not able to achieve what they want, they can be inflexible and self-centered. So if your friend was born in the year of the tiger, there will be highs and lows in your friendship, but the friendship itself will remain firm.

Tiger Love Affairs
People born in the year of the tiger are often sensitive and emotional. They are capable of great love, but they may also become too intense about it. Sometimes they are territorial and possessive. If your friend or beloved is a tiger type and he/she wants you to take his/her side against the bad guys, you most likely will do it. As lovers, tiger people are passionate and romantic, but the real challenge for them is to grasp the true meaning of moderation.

Tiger type of people are often attracted by people with an independent character, but it is important to remember that even if that people are stimulated by the tiger's company and admire tiger's energy, they can still manage without them. Tiger person is usually not afraid to express his/her emotions and feelings, but it is natural for him/her to change his/her preferences. Tiger person needs a partner who remains steady and constant, and quietly pursues their own plans.

Tiger Career
Because of the fact that people born in this year are urgent creatures and always in a hurry to get things done right, they usually choose to operate alone. Tigers like to work; they are hard-working and dynamic by nature. If you assign a task to a Tiger, the job will be undertaken and accomplished with enthusiasm and efficiency. Optimism, determination and initiative are their strong points. While some projects may succeed because tiger has the drive to see them through to the end, the other will be left in a half - way because of the tiger's inability to deal well with failure. Tiger person becomes flustered when colleagues discover that he/she have misjudged situation

In spite of his/her enormous energy and commitment, tiger person must be able to sustain his/her optimism and drive or he/she could dissipate his/her efforts. Other people should hold the pursue strings, budged for the unforeseen and direct him/her to do what he/she is the best at. One of the most important ingredient in a partnership with this type is always to be focused on an objective.

Ideal Job for the Tiger Include
Entrepreneur, Military officer, Politician, Musician, Writer, Poet, Designer, Theatre director, Stockbroker, Athlete, Film star, Trade union leader, Company director, Stunt person, Explorer, Teacher.

film star! i'd love to! lol.

Horoscope background
Lucky Numbers: 4, 5, 7, 9, 13, 34, 44, 45, 54
Equivalent Western Sign: Aquarius
Element WOOD
Color GREEN
Yin/Yang YANG
Direction EAST-NORTH-EAST

Tiger Compatibility
Compatible with : Horse, Dragon, Dog
Less Compatible with : Rat, Ox, Rabbit, Tiger, Ram, Pig
Least Compatible with : Rooster, Snake, Monkey

Positive and Negative Capability
Positive: The Tiger can be lovable, alluring, warm-hearted, altruistic, honourable, hard-working, pleasant, independant, engaging, dynamic and idealist sweetie pies.

Negative: The Tiger can also be rash, hot-headed, reckless, infatuated, quarrelsome, caustic, moody, predatory, rebellious, disobedient and irreverent rascals.

Wish everyone a roaring year ahead!!
good health & great success !!
HUAT AH!! !! =D

2010-02-12T22:46:00.001+08:00

Love, it is said, makes fools of us all. But movies like "Valentine's Day" try to fool us: that easy endings are happy ones, that sex is something to be afraid of, that activity is a substitute for story, that bigness excuses blandness, that Los Angeles is made of wealthy white people with some occasional ethnic comedic relief. The real St. Valentine was stoned and beheaded; would that the same fate fell on the people behind this shallow, shabby fraud.
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2010-02-02T00:58:00.003+08:00

When it doesn't rain it snows.
Yeah the cookie crumbles but in whose hand?
All things said and all things done
Life is short

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done...life's too short

Ooooh could this be....
Ooooh could this be the day I've waited for?

Another door to peek in through
The floor is filthy
But the couch is clean
At the end of the day
That's another day gone
Life is short....Ooo life is short

Ooooh
Could this be....
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ooh Ba da da da da da da da...Ba da da

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
But life is short

Ooooh
Could this be...
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ba da da da da ba da da...

2010-01-27T00:41:00.001+08:00

Had a rough day at work.
Lotsa investigations, unexpected and some unecessary ones,
clear emailssss, clear faxes, run errands, clear ppl's doubts, trainings,
find files all over my team work space, dig for sources, be it last month's or current,
answer phone calls and attend to RM (relationship officers) and internal calls.
finish amendments and urgent cases,
produce enough work for checker's next allocation,
Sandwiched between checkers (ppl who are of higher ranks who check my work, im the maker btw).
my co-colleague was loaned out to another unit since early this month, hence im carrying both our workloads.

seriously, all these every single day...
i start work at 8.15am and knocked off at an average of 7pm.
(officially work time - 8.30am - 6.15pm)
i envy those who can leave on the dot or even go for long lunch break...

Does it sounds like im complaining here ??
not really. just sympathising myself...
ALL i asked for me to fulfil my duties, clear the stuffs smoothly,
leave as low O/S as possible...
without interruptions and sudden distractions.

major headache-stucked btn an angel and devil and i dont know who shld i serve.cos either way could be right/wrong/good/bad.
if i refer them to Boss to give them work, they'll think that im using "boss" name to settle matters.
if i dont, i have to do whichever ways they want, and at the end of the day,
the person who suffer is ME.
i've to rush work for both parties.
I dont wish to be unfair and i hate the sight of selfishness around me.
as much as i want to, but i cant please everyone....
how how how ~ !! ?? !!

brain juice gonna used up even before it replenished.-energy bar just keep dropping like stock market.-work pile up like you'll never get to see the "ray of lights" out there-controlling my bladder like the restroom is a 30mins walk away-dont even have the time for water or not to mention snacks/sweets/medications...

sounds exaggerating lah!
but SERIOUSLY, being 80% of that is good enough! =P

- peace out -

happy thing of the day.

i ordered some stickers and post-it for my daily schedule book =)

2010-01-25T00:17:00.004+08:00

Eileen n Rong Sheng's ROM.

eil was v nervous lah! haha

presenting their marriage certificate. woowww.

Then the party girls cheeredddd for them to kisss...

Seems like shy ones doesnt satisfy us.. so being the initiative one, Eil grabbed him over...

*whistles*

candids...

i like yaya's locks. it's the "in" length this season =)

After the lunch, i cabbed down to NaFa's open house. what a shame that i missed Lasalle's. =(
had a not so pleasant experience in Nafa. The lousy student guides gave wrong directions and i had to walked to n fro campus 1 and 2 to find my course venue. damn. was wearing 3inches high heels lah!!
Anw, i finally found my way all by myself. Made my way to the room for course enquiries. Basically, all you can do to get attention is to stand nearer to the seats where the lecturers with other ppl were and they'll signal you to sit down. *shrugs*
managed to get some infos abt the some unrelated course instead.
Wanted to enquire abt "VISUAL COMM n MARKETING" and the lecturer keeps telling me abt "GRAPHIC COMM"... seriously, confused me totally

Evening with family.
mom wanted to go Swensens for her durian ice cream, so we made an reservation at Ion. =D

mom's trying to widen her eyes. and i was like "hey mom, tt's not how you smile for the camera!"

So which one of us resembles mom the most ?? ??

my usuallll. boring but yea still boringg crayfish pasta..

i still love my usual frosted chocolate malt ice cream.
Seriously, there's only afew of my favourites from Swensen. lol.
So sticking to the usual is the best choice.

i love my inovi glittery lashes.
it's comfortable and fine. shall get more... heee. =)

2010-01-20T21:28:00.003+08:00

"Your future lies in your own hands."
sounds familiar huh?
Well, it's an old saying and never too late to REALLY TRULY understand what it means and signifies.
Not exactly to the POINT of living your ideal life, your ideal car, ideal job or even the most magnificent apartment.

To my understanding,
You are leading a decent life, somewhat comfortable in most aspects of your life, a job that pays the rent, the transport that brings you to place safely, a peaceful shelter where you live, with people who loves and care for you.

Somehow don’t know how or when, I picked up the pencils and crayons and started sketching my very own drawings, still remember I drew little girls with stick eyes and hands with out-of-proportion body size. Back then in primary school, every art student must have an art folio. With the help from my dad, I enhanced my own with drawings and self-stick enclosure. He was a technical and rather creative person back then. Perhaps my so-called artistic genes were inherited from him.

While girls at my age were playing barbie dolls, I designed and cut out the outfits for my paper dolls. Each girl with their own style and occasion.

There was a few times, that my mother caught me drawing behind my school works and she flared up. Without hesitation, she flung them out of the window. I cried real hard and went downstairs to collect the crashed and scatters works. There were many recollections of such incidents so I shant dwell on them any further. In short, I was the odd one out of my siblings, who were mathematically and academically smarter than I am.
Well, I was often distracted while doing my homeworks. Mother had never encouraged me to draw as she wants me to concentrate on my studies.

YES.

Drawing is NOT an option of studies until I got into the Art class during secondary school. It was then the terror and the hideous hobby of mine can unveil and be proudly displayed in and out of school.
Truthfully, I was not an Ace student for Art, I fared simply ok, not the worst lah.
Water coloring, painting, sculpting, batik etc.
It was only then my mother acknowledge this hobby of mine =)

Now that im older, I’m free to choose what I wants to study, my path and future are where I choose to be. Sometimes, some things can go out of control.

Such as spending a huge sum of money to enroll into the school you want, the future aspect of the course, the setbacks of the degree that might get you nowhere.

Right now,

I am leading a life of a nobody, just a bank executive in a local bank that pays me enough (thou never enough for goodies every months, but sufficient for my small shopping at the most 3 times a week, I think)

I’ve obtained a certain stage in the educational level with 2 diplomas. (inclusive of a year for an unrecognized diploma in a private school.) Im feeling a pinch of pain for the $$ spent on school fees and project material spent during this study, BUT im glad I’ve learnt more stuffs, hopefully enough for taking me to the next level of studies which I am currently planning.
Another year has past, im not getting younger anymore.
Time doesn’t wait for me. Other than having the opportunities and the courage to move on.

I know that I cant I stay at this spot anymore. I kept telling myself, stop going in circles, stop whining and question myself why am i still here?

Now it’s time to reach for a next level!!

But I believe that, at least you had done your best in giving what you have.
The rest is up to the opportunities, the luck and the people who will appreciate your works.

Most importantly,

Have you made a start?

Have you found the route you wanna walk?

No regrets in this life?

If you dont start NOW, then when?

When the world says

Give up.

Hope whispers...

Try it one more time
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2010-01-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

LASALLE Show 2009
by LASALLE College of the Arts

LASALLE Show 2009 from LASALLE College of the Arts on Vimeo.

NAFA's Fashion and Marketing or LASALLE's Fashion Management ?
i personally wanna study Fashion studies in Lasalle.
A school of vibe, the fashion market and personally, it's been my dream...

due to $$ & study duration constraints...
im stucked btn these 2 schools.
=(

2010-01-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Jae's interview with Razor TV.

part2 part3 part4 part5 part6

really good to see him getting closer to his dreams.
it's definately not an overnight effort but yearsss of hard work and "never-say-die" attitude.
Ganbatte Jae !! =)

2010-01-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

In your brown eyes, walked away
In your brown eyes, couldn't stay
In your brown eyes, you watch her go

And turn the record on
And wonder what went wrong
What went wrong

If everything was everything
But everything is over
Everything could be everything
If only we were older

Guess its just a silly song about you
And how i lost you
And your brown eyes

In your brown eyes, i was feeling low
'cause they're brown eyes and you never know
Got some brown eyes, but a soft face

I knew that it was wrong
So baby, turn the record on
Play that song

Where everything was everything
But everything is over
Everything could be everything
If only we were older

Guess its just a silly song about you
And how i lost you
And your brown eyes

Everything was everything
But baby its the last show
Everything could be everything
But it's time to say goodbye so
Get your last fix, and your last hit
Grab your old girl with her new tricks

Honey yeah, it's no surprise
I got lost in your brown eyes

In your brown eyes
Brown, brown eyes
Your brown eyes
Brown, brown eyes
Got some brown eyes
Brown, brown eyes
Brown eyes

-
minw wanna SCREAM wanna CRY wanna HIDE wanna BITE!!!!

2010-01-09T00:12:00.003+08:00

im so gonna rent this dvd tmr "Up Close & Personal".
cheers! =)

soundtrack::Because you loved me.
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

(bis)

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

2010-01-01T23:29:00.004+08:00

New Year's Eve at En dining.
great japanese food at bt timah - away from the crowd.

im always in love with their Unagi Fried Rice!
Another favourite on the list - Shabu Shabu !!!! =)

Our new hairdo for the new year !!

Happy 2010 peeps!!
have a GREAT, smaShing, smOOth-sailing yEar ahEad !!
=)

it's time for 2009 reflections & 2010 resolutions.

2010-01-01T23:27:00.001+08:00

On Xmas Eve & long Weekend.

Some Xmas gifts from colleagues and friends.

I like the percussion set!!!! =)

From Yosh.

XMAS Countdown party at Ed's hse!

simple designer's room with great DIY deco.
The landscape silhouettes high up on the white wall.
door signs and paintings.
Wish i can stay with my friends too~
hohoho

jingle bells jingle bells jingle bells rocks.

2010-01-01T22:42:00.006+08:00

Xmas weekend::
Night-out w Joshz.

purple pouch embroidered with majolica majorca logo.
aint the Silver interior nice ?

Had dinner at Akashi this nice cosy jap cusine at Orchard Parade Hotel.

not bad lah!

wooww.... look at the price...

Such a coincidence that we r wearing boots.

YESH!! ARii lovEs christmaS!

Welcome to Tiger yeaR!!

Next stop : KPO!

And then we smuggled our way into Mio's bday bash at Lunar.

Happy birthday to Mio ~ ! !

"Friends-in-HK" unites!!
Caught in Typhoon.
Late night desserts in TST.
Neoprints and arcade hangouts.
Late night shopping til we drop.
sounds like we've been thru "hard times" in HK.
lol

Joshz n Ashz!

With Jaesonnnn!! SuperDuper since i last SEEN him !!! awh.
clickclick slapslap tiong ~

Regina. she super hyper lah!

With STevE!

seriously, dan looks pretty drunk! lol. all dark n blushed.

sensational Mio-in-action !!

i personally like the last 2 shots *whistles* =D

Guess who's drunk ? who's crazy ?

Enjoy the singings by the trained singers in da house!

2009-12-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Super Junior-M(슈퍼주니어-M)
Super Girl

wee. i like their dance. this song!
my favourite is Donghai! =)
the guy at 1:34 !
cute n romatic prince.
hehe

2009-12-27T19:31:00.002+08:00

T&O xmas party part 2

--

im so upset with some issue here.
F-king disappointed.
F-king upset.
I dont wish to tok abt it anymore.
so here's the one n only time im saying these.
i've been trying to protect someone, loving her more than i shld.
Am i being too over protective?
Now i began to realise something.
There's a limit to what i can do as a friend,
someone more than a friend to be exact.

Example;
When someone gets sick,
Only medicine and TLCs can cure the illness.
One has tried all means
plenty of TLCs but without the medicine,
which the someone does not wish to consume.
who will be responsible if the sickness deteriorate?
One got so worked up for nothing,
all effort, all attention went down the drain.
Watching helplessly as the situation worsens and went haywire.

No one can help someone unless they reflect and take action.
Else things will always land in the same shit.
All gone.